Back to Blogging

It’s no secret that this blog has been operating at a reduced pace for some time now. I’m struggling to post much of anything, and I’m utterly failing in writing the kind of stuff I would like to be writing: longer and (hopefully) more substantive essays than what’s been posted recently, the kind that I used to turn out regularly.

And it’s hardly the case that I’ve been stumped for topics to post about, either. To the contrary, all sorts of blog post ideas continue to occur to me at all times. Often I’ll start mentally drafting them, anticipating a free moment when I can type them out and turn them into real posts that get published on this site — you know, like a blogger would do. But then a very busy day goes by, and two or three more, and before long the post no longer seems timely or unique and the moment is gone.

 

Back during the peak of my blogging, it used to be that I could spend a few hours after dinner hammering out five or ten somewhat coherent paragraphs, several nights a week. It took a lot of discipline, but mostly it required time. That all seems to have receded far into my past now, when I was much younger, frankly.

As you get older, free time usually becomes progressively rarer. But in the past several months, I’ve barely been able to stitch together even fifteen or twenty free minutes a day — thanks in no small part to the changes that have happened in my life. Any one of these changes might have made for decent blog fodder, but they all happened within the space of just a few short months and together conspired to rob me of almost all of my unclaimed time.

To start, we sold Mixel to Etsy in January, and I’ve spent the past eight weeks acclimating to the culture and my new responsibilities at my new employers. That in itself would make for at least a few posts; there are stories I would like to tell about the whole Mixel journey, especially its end, as well as thoughts I’d like to publish about our acquisition and what life has been like at Etsy.

Then there’s the house that Laura and I just bought, and all of the excitement, pressure and confusion of owning a building of our own, from basement to roof. There’s probably not all that much about this subject that’s particularly interesting to readers of this blog, but all of the time I spend driving to and from Home Depot is time I could theoretically be spending on this blog.

Finally, there’s the big one — or the big two, to be exact: the birth of our twin boys in January and the attendant, total upheaval in our lives. We are very lucky to have these two wonderful, healthy kids, but either one of them, even on their own, has been much more demanding than our daughter was when she was an infant — and there are two of them! They have been absolutely unceasing in their need for attention, food and care, and as a result I find myself continually exhausted, wanly coping with the deleterious effects of sleep deprivation.

 

Still, I miss this blog, and the act of writing regularly for it, and all of the feedback and conversation that it makes possible. When I started out blogging, I never would have expected to have such a long, continuous (if not consistent) run. I’m not ready to give up on it yet.

Sometimes, too, the longer you go between writing blog posts, the harder it is to get back into the swing of things. I know that as I’ve tossed more and more of those mental drafts onto my imaginary scrap heap of post ideas, the more important the next big blog post seems like it has to be. It’s gotten to the point now where I feel like I couldn’t possibly just write any old post without at least mentioning the tremendous stress of selling a company and starting a new job with the acquirer, the exhilaration of assisting in the delivery of my second and third children, the trepidation of closing on a new home purchase, the whirlwind of packing up an apartment rife with sentimental baggage, and the nervous jitters of moving to a new neighborhood — preferably all summed up in one lavishly detailed, momentous essay.

That’s never going to happen, obviously, at least not with the schedule I’ve been keeping these days. What I really need is to write a blog post that clears the decks, one that owns up to how starkly impersonal my posts have been for months now, and essentially gives me permission to start trying to write again. So here it is. Those other posts will come — I have too much to say about these various topics to punt on them altogether — but for now I’m just going to try to start blogging again.

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8 Comments

  1. Congratulations on the many amazing and awesome things happening in your life! What a wonderfully honest post, thank you. You have many supporters, including myself, who are happy just to hear that you are well.

  2. Getting back into the groove of blogging can be quite trying, but I applaud your re-booted determination! :)

    Question tho, are you now working for Etsy, or did you just sell Mixel to them? If not, where are you working now? I may send you a super secret email offline (well, offweb anyway) as I’m considering a redirected career path…

    Double congrats on the twins!

  3. I remember those days of yore on this blog. Have to say your post resonated with me. Being the father of three boys I can relate to the demands of child care (albeit I did not have twins :-) and also pursuing my own business goals along with maintaining my own website. I let the website slide too (for far too long) so know that you’re not alone.

    Thanks for the update on everything and it sound like you guys are in the thick of life. I know you’ve heard it more than once but your kids grow up FAST.

    Looking forward to more posts.

  4. These are exciting times for you both professionally and personally. Be kind to yourself and enjoy this time as much as you can. Your blog will be always there.

  5. I am a fairly recent subscriber to your blog and I was delighted to hear about the arrival of your beautiful babies. Your honesty is refreshing, but David is right – your blog will always be there. Enjoy your family and write when you can.

  6. Welcome to the ‘no free time because of children and family-life’ club, Khoi.

    I’d like to say it gets easier, but I don’t think it really does. You just learn to deal with it better, as you are showing here, which is great.

    Keep going, we’re still here :-)

  7. I’ve discovered your blog a while ago, when I was researching about illustration in the web. I cherish the archive of your posts, where I can easily find good, thoughtful articles about the topics of my interest.

    When your posts shift away from my fields of interest, I browse without reading in-depth, but when something of more relevance for me appears I take the time to read.

    So I’m looking forward to what you’ll write in the future. Sifting through what’s important can be troublesome, so I hope you’ll not let yourself be discouraged by lack of time, especially since you express that there’s still a lot you’d like to talk about.

    Greetings from Berlin, Germany!